Infinity

Infinity

Out there is a world for you with infinite possibilities. If you could look past the social and spiritual layers formed around you. If you can hear the silence of the wilderness. You'll sense the need to find yourself. Who you really are? or who you can be?

When life is all about you, you have to know who you are. You are filled with infinite energy. It all you'll ever need. You are authentic, Do not be influenced with the system you swim in. It doesn't define you. Step out of your zone of ease, because there is nothing left for you to do.  Open yourself to the endless possibilities. Do not  pursue after riches, fame or greatness. You'll fall back into the world of surreality. Your senses are pure,Use them. They'll walk you to YOU. Exploration is a necessity for us. The liberty is within you. Go to the extremities of your senses. The pursuit to your life will teach you so many things. Things that are impeccable and are understood only with cleansed heart. You'll travel through horrendous layers. Let not the black smog of it get into your head. You'll have companions.You may travel the same path as some or may find new. Be wise and be kind.

Your exploration will be full of stories with morals within. But Remember that the tale of your life is not complete and never will be. Because YOU are made of more.YOU are infinity. 

Let's Patch up

                      Let's Patch up

                                           - Johnny vas

I chose to tell the truth, I was drawn and I had no choice. I tried to get away and you didn’t let me. Sounds confusing, so am I now, that's how things are. I tried to understand but it confused me more. If I try to approach you, it confuses me and yet, something makes me believe that you feel something.

 Now our time is running out and we are neglecting perhaps our last chance. And I just wanted you to know that if I could I would find more time for us both. The flow of misunderstandings has made me juvenile and put me into a question loop. I wish I could know what went wrong. Loneliness doesn’t bother me, what bothers me is the awkward silence between you and me.

I know I’m not an easy one to stick around. I may not be at my best as a friend. But it’s no lie that I loved being around you. I might have taken things for granted, thus ignored you and lost in my world. You know I’ve tried to conciliate and it didn’t go well. Now I don’t know if you still want me around. If it is to be apart, I do not know how much it will take to forget about your eyes, forget how I felt good just to be with you, how much we understand, sometimes without a single word said. It will be hard not to remember that strength which seemed to be present when we were together, the smiles that you and I shared.

 I spent days alone now.  I've been going without you and it’s not great so far.  But you have to know that I can’t stay around for long. You can’t deny the obvious. What I saw around you was completely new to me and I thoroughly enjoyed it.  All I wanted is to make you feel good around me. I want the same for everyone else.

I decided to give a try again, because as a narcissist (selfish person) I want my complete happYness back.

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Cheers!!

  Cheers

                - Johnny vas

A lovely day, out with my friends.
Chatted and gossiped with all smiles.

Shared one too many jokes,
With them the time just flies

As I'm staying alone ;
Their company feels like home.

I love them with all heart.
But, am I doing right?

So, I ponder in wonder.
Coz we can't be forever.

The teasing and laughing has been so fun.
I just don't know how long will it run.

Shall come a time,
Where the family comes prime

Soon goes everyone ;
And the moments bygone.

The present turns past
And the past shall last,


As a memory to relish,
A story I'll always cherish.

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Surreal

                                                           - Johnny vas

From woods to meadows I searched everywhere to see the sight of you.

I crossed the seas, I trekked the heights just to find a trace of you.

In this surreal world I've been dreaming for long.

Once I find you, I'll take you along.

Oh! My love, I vow my life.

Come hell or high water

I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you smile.

Oh! My Dear;

What a splendid night,

To have an angel insight.

Behold and walk till the dusk

Holding hands and gazing at stars.

Oh! My Bird;

I can't be tired,

All the hitches were slid aside.

When I have you beside.

Oh! My Queen;

Rise and shine.

Savor my love, favor my life;

I’ll love you as long as the earth turns and the sun burns.

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Change

Change

                 - Johnny vas

In the recent days. I've been questioning a lot about me, analyzing the changes that happened to me. Filtering impurities out of my attitude. Trying to be a better person. This is a period of transition in my life. I finally have to clear this complex clouds around me. I think I lost myself somewhere in the way of exploiting knowledge. I think it is time to see everything in a simple way. Understanding emotions and feelings of people. I was not raised among people to feel all these before, but I still feel I have a chance. All these days I spent time in understanding things in life. I think it is time I have to stop understanding and start feeling them. I can't discard connections like "Buddha" But I needed the time to not to goof up my life anymore because there are people that are linked to it. Now that more people are liking me, caring me I felt a fear that asks why do I deserve these people's attention? What do they see in me? Do I really deserve this much of care n love?

Slowly I've realized that I am not completely honest to anyone, not even to myself. So, I felt the need to correct me. All this time I thought giving hope and love selflessly makes me good, but   now I'm ready to be a normal person like the rest. I want to be loved, cared and expressed.  Through this course I've caused pain to all those lovely people around me. I made them cry, I made them suffer and I made them hate me. They don't deserve such treatment, not from me not from anyone. I don't want to sit back and grieve about it coz I can’t alter the past. But I’ll never forget what I did to them. I wish I could take all back, redeem all those moments of love. I broke some promises and I have to make amends. I’ll make sure this never happens again. I’ll make sure no one suffers again.

Through my life, I failed to realize some changes that occurred to me. They have spread like a cancer within me. They made me selfish, arrogant, judgmental and utterly foolish. By the time I realized, the damage has done. Now I have to reset my life in fact upgrade it. Hopefully, once I complete this transition, I will come out as a beautiful soul.

Changes are natural in life. Some happens for good, some turns bad. They might occur at any time in our life. Some have to be embraced and some have to be eliminated. We should be vigilant coz once they occur, we will not be the same person by the time we spot them.

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To

The people who still care about me

Your’s Truly

Vas

In the End

                        In the End    

                                                         - Johnny Vas

There is a part of me that never wants to leave you, which wants me to love you as much as I can. There is a voice inside me that hinders me from caring about you thinking that you may not be forever. Inside me there is a struggle that moves back and forth asking me questions about you. Your love makes me warm and freeze at once and puzzles me from loving you back. I tried to ignore and I couldn’t do it. I absconded for a while thinking that things will be alright without you. Your presence brings me joy, your feelings makes me think. You make me fragile and exposed.

Deep inside me there is a fear of losing you. You came too close to my heart and it’s too much to handle. It shivers me like the chills of a morning winter and blocks my brain cold. I am naïve to feelings and emotions and I don’t connect well with them. I feel its better I stay away from such feelings rather suffer in pain. I’m just trying to shield your love and care that penetrates into me.  I can’t take a stab into my heart again. Because it pains a lot worse when you pull a sword back from a pierced heart.

I wanted my world to be joyful and I’m selfish that I use people around me to entertain me and my life is nothing without them. I want the vicinity to be perky and I find a self satisfaction to have those moments. I love, I care and more than all I respect you for the person that you are. I want you to be happy. I want you to be special as the way you are. I’ll always cherish the times I spent with you and I want you to feel the same. 

Every journey has an end, but I’ll be glad to have you as long as I travel and I’ll travel along as long as you want me to. I never wanted you to leave me but you are free to go. After all I am the one who walks the grave all alone. And when the time comes, I shall not see you leaving in tears. I shall see a glow in your face, a smile on your lips and your eyes looking at me which says “Good bye! Dear. I had a good time”. 


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To
Pamela Galluzzo

Heartily

Johnny Vas

LOVE . . .

                                             - Johnny Vas 

It’s an Honor to get loved by someone.  It’s a responsibility to deserve the special attention. Taking or giving love is a promise of trust and Honesty.  Once the love turns mutual it needs a lot of hope and patience. It needs comfort, caring and courage to keep it everlasting.  True love starts in a heart and stays in it. Trick love might start in a heart but ends in mind. In the pursuit of love we come up with many expectations and wishes.  We dream a whole new world of Romance and possibilities.  It’s a great feeling to be in love. But it melts when the heart stops thinking about the good times that are spent together and when the mind starts finding the reasons for small arguments.  Love needs freedom and understanding. Sometimes it needs silence and sometimes it needs a lot more than everything we can offer. It may not be shared with one single person. But it’s a great thing to share with everyone who needs it. Love is not exclusive to a pair of hearts. It’s Universal and widely spread even in the cruelest piece of hearts.  It is a fragile emotion yet the most powerful. It shines, it shades, it burns, and it breaks. It’s a viscous material that steams away with miserable misunderstandings. It’s often mistaken as attraction, lust, and infatuation. But For those who really feel it, they know it’s LOVE.