Surreal

                                                           - Johnny vas

From woods to meadows I searched everywhere to see the sight of you.

I crossed the seas, I trekked the heights just to find a trace of you.

In this surreal world I've been dreaming for long.

Once I find you, I'll take you along.

Oh! My love, I vow my life.

Come hell or high water

I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you smile.

Oh! My Dear;

What a splendid night,

To have an angel insight.

Behold and walk till the dusk

Holding hands and gazing at stars.

Oh! My Bird;

I can't be tired,

All the hitches were slid aside.

When I have you beside.

Oh! My Queen;

Rise and shine.

Savor my love, favor my life;

I’ll love you as long as the earth turns and the sun burns.

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Change

Change

                 - Johnny vas

In the recent days. I've been questioning a lot about me, analyzing the changes that happened to me. Filtering impurities out of my attitude. Trying to be a better person. This is a period of transition in my life. I finally have to clear this complex clouds around me. I think I lost myself somewhere in the way of exploiting knowledge. I think it is time to see everything in a simple way. Understanding emotions and feelings of people. I was not raised among people to feel all these before, but I still feel I have a chance. All these days I spent time in understanding things in life. I think it is time I have to stop understanding and start feeling them. I can't discard connections like "Buddha" But I needed the time to not to goof up my life anymore because there are people that are linked to it. Now that more people are liking me, caring me I felt a fear that asks why do I deserve these people's attention? What do they see in me? Do I really deserve this much of care n love?

Slowly I've realized that I am not completely honest to anyone, not even to myself. So, I felt the need to correct me. All this time I thought giving hope and love selflessly makes me good, but   now I'm ready to be a normal person like the rest. I want to be loved, cared and expressed.  Through this course I've caused pain to all those lovely people around me. I made them cry, I made them suffer and I made them hate me. They don't deserve such treatment, not from me not from anyone. I don't want to sit back and grieve about it coz I can’t alter the past. But I’ll never forget what I did to them. I wish I could take all back, redeem all those moments of love. I broke some promises and I have to make amends. I’ll make sure this never happens again. I’ll make sure no one suffers again.

Through my life, I failed to realize some changes that occurred to me. They have spread like a cancer within me. They made me selfish, arrogant, judgmental and utterly foolish. By the time I realized, the damage has done. Now I have to reset my life in fact upgrade it. Hopefully, once I complete this transition, I will come out as a beautiful soul.

Changes are natural in life. Some happens for good, some turns bad. They might occur at any time in our life. Some have to be embraced and some have to be eliminated. We should be vigilant coz once they occur, we will not be the same person by the time we spot them.

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To

The people who still care about me

Your’s Truly

Vas

In the End

                        In the End    

                                                         - Johnny Vas

There is a part of me that never wants to leave you, which wants me to love you as much as I can. There is a voice inside me that hinders me from caring about you thinking that you may not be forever. Inside me there is a struggle that moves back and forth asking me questions about you. Your love makes me warm and freeze at once and puzzles me from loving you back. I tried to ignore and I couldn’t do it. I absconded for a while thinking that things will be alright without you. Your presence brings me joy, your feelings makes me think. You make me fragile and exposed.

Deep inside me there is a fear of losing you. You came too close to my heart and it’s too much to handle. It shivers me like the chills of a morning winter and blocks my brain cold. I am naïve to feelings and emotions and I don’t connect well with them. I feel its better I stay away from such feelings rather suffer in pain. I’m just trying to shield your love and care that penetrates into me.  I can’t take a stab into my heart again. Because it pains a lot worse when you pull a sword back from a pierced heart.

I wanted my world to be joyful and I’m selfish that I use people around me to entertain me and my life is nothing without them. I want the vicinity to be perky and I find a self satisfaction to have those moments. I love, I care and more than all I respect you for the person that you are. I want you to be happy. I want you to be special as the way you are. I’ll always cherish the times I spent with you and I want you to feel the same. 

Every journey has an end, but I’ll be glad to have you as long as I travel and I’ll travel along as long as you want me to. I never wanted you to leave me but you are free to go. After all I am the one who walks the grave all alone. And when the time comes, I shall not see you leaving in tears. I shall see a glow in your face, a smile on your lips and your eyes looking at me which says “Good bye! Dear. I had a good time”. 


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To
Pamela Galluzzo

Heartily

Johnny Vas

LOVE . . .

                                             - Johnny Vas 

It’s an Honor to get loved by someone.  It’s a responsibility to deserve the special attention. Taking or giving love is a promise of trust and Honesty.  Once the love turns mutual it needs a lot of hope and patience. It needs comfort, caring and courage to keep it everlasting.  True love starts in a heart and stays in it. Trick love might start in a heart but ends in mind. In the pursuit of love we come up with many expectations and wishes.  We dream a whole new world of Romance and possibilities.  It’s a great feeling to be in love. But it melts when the heart stops thinking about the good times that are spent together and when the mind starts finding the reasons for small arguments.  Love needs freedom and understanding. Sometimes it needs silence and sometimes it needs a lot more than everything we can offer. It may not be shared with one single person. But it’s a great thing to share with everyone who needs it. Love is not exclusive to a pair of hearts. It’s Universal and widely spread even in the cruelest piece of hearts.  It is a fragile emotion yet the most powerful. It shines, it shades, it burns, and it breaks. It’s a viscous material that steams away with miserable misunderstandings. It’s often mistaken as attraction, lust, and infatuation. But For those who really feel it, they know it’s LOVE.

Nothing but Love

I saw you and I want to talk to you. You saw me and you smiled. Then I smiled back. Days passed and I’m seeing you every day and you know that. You crashed into me several times and I know that you like me. You gave me tons of chances I never saw them. I want to dance with you and I know you like to join me. All I have to do is ask. You waited for me and I waited for you. But we both know deep inside we are communicating.  I want to be with you and I want to touch you and I know you feel the same. I want to take you for a walk, hold you in my arms, hug you tight and make you feel secure. All I have to do is reach for your hand. Our feelings are mutual and there is “nothing” that can break us. All I have to do is come near to you.

Weeks passed and then I saw him smiling at you. You smiled back. But I know your eyes are watching me. He crashed into you and you know it. He came up to you and you talked .he asked you to dance and you did. He took you to dine, then for a walk and you held his hands. He hugged you tight and you cuddled.

Months passed and the time has come. He knelt on his knees to pray for your love for the rest of his life and you answered his prayers.

I was there all the time watching you. But your eyes stopped looking for me and your lips stopped smiling at me.

There is nothing wrong with neither you nor me. Because all I did was nothing but love and that’s the “nothing” that broke us.

You are happy and secure in his hands and I hope you live happily ever after. I am dark and timid left with scattered memories.

Now you have a lovely life and I’m left with a pen and a paper that tells the tale of a tainted heart.

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A Street Diamond

                    

There was a boy who is lean and little but shiny and smiley. He was bullied by his friends. He was flogged with canes and was pushed into puddles. He was insulted and humiliated in every possible way. But he never cried nor complained. He knew that he was treated badly. Yet still he goes out every day to play or get played. He knew that they will throw stones at him and yet he brought them cookies. He was dropped out in every game yet he watched them play. He knew that no one liked him yet he loved everyone. He knew there is plenty of happiness around him, but he never wished for it. He never had the luck of having the joy. Yet he thanks god for the life he has.  No one knows where does he live and no one cared either. He never went to school, but always roams around it. They thought he was a retard and ignored him, but he knew he is not. He is different.

He is different because his life doesn’t start with bread and butter every day.  It starts with drinking water under a street tap. His life won’t let him to go to school. It wants him to pick the trash every morning.  He hardly gets his daily food yet he shares it with the little money he got. He waits outside the school to join the kids to play. He takes the beatings and shares the cookies because they are the only people who keep him company. He never cried since he has no tears left inside. He never complained and thanks god instead.  He smiles like a prince and shines like a gem. He lives with a faith and fights with a hope. This little boy is a street diamond.

P.S :  Every year  thousands of kids are going homeless

Global estimates suggest that between 30 to 150 million children and young people live on the streets of the major cities and towns in the world. Nearly all street children have some form of contact with a family member. Sadly, most children don’t maintain any contact with their family because of the circumstances that pushed them onto the streets in the first place. Poverty, physical and sexual abuses are the three main reasons street children give as to why they have ended up living on the streets. Predominantly boys claim to have been physically abused whilst girls claim to have been sexually abused before leaving home. Sometimes the pressure of poverty together with social vulnerability and exclusion increase the likelihood of young children joining the population of street children worldwide.

This is dedicated for those Diamonds who rise above all.

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I Miss You

I may not have known you long, but I liked you since the moment we spoke. I enjoyed every second being with you and I can't thank you enough. You’ve been a fantastic friend so far and I hope you would be by my side forever. You’ve shown me your bright and dark sides and every memory of you made me closer to you. You are a unique charm that shines even in the dark.


I've given you some hard times and I still feel sorry for it. I have not been such a good pal, but I promise I'll make it up to you. I don't want to be a fool by making a mistake again. I might have hidden some things about me, but I never lied to you. I will not ask you to trust me because trust is something that should be earned. I know you deserve better and I will never make you suffer.


I just wish you’d come back to me soon because ever since you left me, I missed the fun of being with you.


I feel a gap in my life from your absence and every moment of it is making me more anxious about you.


You left me in sweet pain and I’m enjoying it.
Your absence only makes my heart grow fonder.


All I want you to know is that
I like you,
I care about you,
and
I miss you.