Let's Patch up
- Johnny vas
I chose to tell the truth, I was drawn and I had no choice. I
tried to get away and you didn’t let me. Sounds confusing, so am I now, that's
how things are. I tried to understand but it confused me more. If I try to
approach you, it confuses me and yet, something makes me believe that you feel something.
Now our time is
running out and we are neglecting perhaps our last chance. And I just wanted
you to know that if I could I would find more time for us both. The flow of misunderstandings
has made me juvenile and put me into a question loop. I wish I could know what
went wrong. Loneliness doesn’t bother me, what bothers me is the awkward silence
between you and me.
I know I’m not an easy one to stick around. I may not be at
my best as a friend. But it’s no lie that I loved being around you. I might have
taken things for granted, thus ignored you and lost in my world. You know I’ve
tried to conciliate and it didn’t go well. Now I don’t know if you still want
me around. If it is to be apart, I do not know how much it will take to forget
about your eyes, forget how I felt good just to be with you, how much we
understand, sometimes without a single word said. It will be hard not to
remember that strength which seemed to be present when we were together, the
smiles that you and I shared.
I spent days alone
now. I've been going without you and it’s
not great so far. But you have to know
that I can’t stay around for long. You can’t deny the obvious. What I saw
around you was completely new to me and I thoroughly enjoyed it. All I wanted is to make you feel good around
me. I want the same for everyone else.
I decided to give a try again, because as a narcissist (selfish
person) I want my complete happYness back.
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